I was persuaded this morning to write today about a
situation that I recently experienced.
Surprise to many, everything isn’t always sunshine and smiles in this
positive world I am creating; There are events (apparently), that take place
that may be perceived as unpleasant and even hurtful. I experienced just that a few days ago and with all of my
practice on perception and energy, my world was still rocked. Since then, I have been dealing with
and trying to manipulate the thoughts presenting themselves as “surprised
betrayal”.
I am sharing my experience because I have learned to trust
that there is meaning in every single moment of every single day of our
lives. I have learned that our
world is what we create it to be; that we can hold on to and feel about things
however we choose to. This
philosophy was put to the test as I tried to disconnect from the hurtful words
echoing in my mind and stinging my heart.
It felt as if I was hit with a blast of sudden and negatively charge
energy. Like a powerful and
painful wave… and it took me down.
Two days later, I couldn’t get out of bed because I didn’t
know what to do. I felt that
everything was shook up. Nothing
was clear through all of the hurt and sadness I felt. Normally, I do not get out of bed without a plan for the day-
I start by giving thanks, review my plans, write down any ideas to explore and
then proceed. But I couldn’t
because of the feelings that had surfaced. I seemed to be attached to them even though I didn’t want to
be. It was as if I was
experiencing a trauma to my soul, my insides were wounded and everything inside
was exposed and it was painful. I
chose to heal my wound by treating the cause, but what was it exactly?
The things echoing in my mind led me to question what I am
doing with my life. I questioned
whether I should give up or continue on this path. Perhaps I should conform to the expectations put on me and
forgo what I have decided my whole life’s purpose is. My heart hurt and I couldn’t think clearly. Nothing felt right. Nothing felt good.
Eventually, as I realized that nothing felt good, I knew
something didn’t match up… my mind said I was not good enough to continue but
everything in me knew that there is not another option for me. That disconnect allowed me search the
root of the issue or the origin of that thought… the cause of the wound.
Before I began practicing and teaching positive self-talk
and hypnosis and coaching and speaking, before I began living life from a
positive point of view, I questioned and thought long and hard about how I
wanted to live. I knew I would
have to overcome many obstacles myself, I changed much of the negative self
talk and self-belief I carried about myself and the world around me. This recent event brought me right back
to those questions. I questioned
my greatness. I questioned my
path.
Once I became aware of this I immediately knew the
“treatment”. I had to let it go.
Before I went to sleep last night I gave thanks for this
event, acknowledging that the most painful events provide an equally extreme
greatness. That something good
comes out of all things. What
determines the distance between where you are and where you want to be is
directly related to the actions you take in between. In my experience, the worse the storm the greater the
rainbow. I decided to trust. I decided to be grateful. I decided to give it up to my higher
power and just be silent. I put on
my stress relief CD and I went to sleep.
I am out of bed writing this with a fever- a fire burning
brighter in me than ever before.
The rainbow I am experiencing today supersedes any pain I felt only
hours before. I needed to share
this as an example of the real power of our minds. I needed to go through the process with you and let you know
that I do understand pain and suffering. I needed to share with you that I also know how to get to the other side
of that very quickly and effectively.
Thank you for reading this. Thank you for the strength you provide for me. Now if you’ll excuse me I have some
greatness to attend to… see you soon.
Much Love.